Life is so precious and short

So Joe has been out of town lately a lot. He has had 2 business trips to mexico and he is in california right now. Although I'm pretty busy all day and night with 3 kids on my own, YES, I still have time to be alone and have my quiet moments...

So, my grandfather passed away 3 weeks ago. I'm still in shock mode over it. He was in his early 70's and was taken off his chemo, diabetes medicines. Hospice came to his house, took over and took him off all meds, food and water. He died 7 days after they began the process. Although I know he was in a great amount of pain and suffered, I am happy he has gone to see the big daddy upstairs.

I really enjoyed my grandpa on earth. He is what you describe every grandfather to be plus more. He had an extremely gentle heart. He always listened to whatever anyone had to say without making a judgement. I, myself, struggle at times not to judge or take sides. My grandfather was never the monkey in the middle, he stayed clear of all gossip and drama. He always had his quotes from the bible to compare a life lesson to. He was an entrepeneur and always encouraged me to continue in life with my goals and dreams. My grandfather was everything I could ever ask for. It breaks my heart to know that I can't just call him and talk to him. Although I only called him once a month, it meant so much to me when I use to live in NYC to visit him. I have some of the best memories of my grandfather and he has left such a huge plate to fill for my father. I only wish that my children get to have the same wonderful experience I had as a grandchild.

I'm ok because I know that God has his reasons for everything and I know my grandfather is out of all pain. What is beyond bizarre, is that my grandfather and I used to joke around all the time. I used to tell him.."Grandpa, when you pass away send me butterflies." He always cracked up laughing because we both knew how bizarre of an idea that was.

Since my grandpa's death, we have had the same yellow and black butterfly lingering around our home and I just saw a new one today. Although, I do not believe in that kind of stuff, it's nice to be reminded of him in such a beautiful way. I can only hope that when I pass away, I have touched as many peoples lives and left a legacy behind me as well.